How often do you allow yourself to be terrible?

Today is October 16 and the Navigate the Chaos question to consider is “how often do you allow yourself to be terrible?” Those who navigate the chaos strive not for perfection, but for progress. Translating one dream into reality after another often requires you to be terrible as perfection from the beginning is a fool’s errand.

No one who ever navigated the chaos was perfect from the start and instead, worked hard at developing a process of being terrible, learning, and then revising. This iterative process then becomes a habit and habits, over the long-term, become a powerful tool in one’s arsenal while traveling the path of navigating the chaos.

As musician Tom Petty wrote "You will never be told when the next bit of education is coming or where it's coming from or who the teacher will be. That information will only reveal itself after the fact. All that you can do is leave a little room there for the next lesson to come through. Someone will be carrying it. You just leave the door open a crack.” Once such person who figured out how to leave the door open for information to reveal itself was British novelist Kazuo Ishiguro.

Ishiguro is currently one of the most celebrated contemporary fiction authors in the English-speaking world. He has received four Man Booker Prize nominations and won the award in 1989 for his novel The Remains of the Day. Ishiguro's 2005 novel, Never Let Me Go, was named by Time as the best novel of the year and was included in the magazine's list of the 100 best English-language novels published between 1923 and 2005.

In 2017, the Swedish Academy awarded Ishiguro the Nobel Prize in Literature, describing him in its citation as a writer "who, in novels of great emotional force, has uncovered the abyss beneath our illusory sense of connection with the world.”

Ishiguro, the winner of the Nobel Prize details how he navigated the chaos when, at 32-years-old, he was flailing professionally and having trouble being productive. So, Ishiguro and his wife, Lorna, hatched a plan to jump-start his creativity. According to Ishiguro:

“I would, for a four-week period, ruthlessly clear my diary and go on what we somewhat mysteriously called a ‘Crash.’ During the Crash, I would do nothing but write from 9 a.m. to 10:30 p.m., Monday through Saturday. I would get one hour off for lunch and two for dinner. I would not see, let alone answer, any mail, and would not go near the phone. No one would come to the house. Lorna, despite her own busy schedule, would for this period do my share of the cooking and housework. In this way, so we hoped, I would not only complete more work quantitively, but reach a mental state in which my fictional world was more real to me than the actual one.”

As Megan Garber wrote in The Atlantic “Ishiguro’s goal was to create an environment, through force of will, in which the author and his story might be merged into one. It was a plan that demanded intentionally de-romanticizing the act of writing.”

During his Crash Ishiguro noted “I wrote free hand, not caring about the style or if something I wrote in the afternoon contradicted something, I’d established in the story that morning. The priority was simply to get the ideas surfacing and growing. Awful sentences, hideous dialogue, scenes that went nowhere—I let them remain and ploughed on.”

As Garber wrote “Ishiguro’s process worked. Four weeks later, he had a draft of The Remains of the Day. He tinkered with it still, yes. He added and trimmed and honed. For the most part, though, he had, in a concentrated month, completed a masterpiece. Ishiguro gave himself the freedom to be terrible for four weeks—and now he has a Nobel Prize to show for it.”

Today’s reflection requires us to look at the following aspects of Ishiguro’s strategy for navigating the chaos.

· Acceptance – he needed to have the self-awareness to accept that, at 32 years of age, his career was not going in the direction he wished. His options were to a)keep using his tired old approach to writing, b)give up writing and pursue something else, or c)change his approach to writing entirely to jump start his career. His decision to change how he wrote was based on an acceptance of his reality. How often are your decisions based on an acceptance of the reality?

· Extreme Dedication – along with his wife he figured out the ‘Crash’ approach to writing where he would allow his writing to consume his life for an entire week. At that point the couple had no children, but they still needed to coordinate efforts if he was to be absorbed in his fictional world for an entire week at a time. How often are you extremely dedicated to your goal?

· Terrible – perhaps most importantly, Ishiguro wrote terrible sentences. This new process, or ‘Crash,’ provided new opportunities as he, in Petty’s words, ‘left the door open a crack,’ to think differently. He gave himself permission to be far from perfect. How often do you allow yourself to be terrible?